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I sometimes wish i had traffic and other things like that to deal with [Jan. 29th, 2007|01:13 pm]
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[trina3]
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I live with my best friend in the whole world and he is wonderful,but i don't go anywhere ever excep to pick up my medications when i meed refills.I check the mail once a day just to get a moments worth of sunshine,because i am the depressive type.I thrive on sunshine for the anti depressant affect it has on me.But now there's no sunshine in my life.I think i'm coming down with seasonal depression even though there is a lot of sunshime here,i'm never out in it to get it's benefits.I don't do well as a shut in and that's what i am now.I don't know what to do,because i love my friend very much.Enough to sacrafice my own needs for his.But he has no idea what it's like to need people,and outside air and sunshime.He's actually one of those people who really doesn't need anyone.When he's alone he doesn't get lonely like i do,and even though he doesn't need anyone he likes having me around,so it's working out real good for hime,but as for myself i'd rather be with my sister and her family,because although my sister is a royal problem to most people most of the time.At least when i was there i had the support of the whole family,which does contain some very supportive people,my sister aside,but now she's on medication and actually even she's doing better.I love my friend with all my heart,but i'm sacrificing my own happiness for his,and i didn't realize that before,I need to be back with my sister where i have the support of that whole side of the family even though their not related to me.they are my sister's in laws,but i could talk to them,go window shopping with them,spend time with my niece,take a walk whenever i wnnt,and things like that.She{my sister's mother in law offered me a lot of support,but at that time i wasn't open to all that.But i can't do what's best for me,because even though my friend says he doesn't need people around him i just can't believe that.If he doesn't he's lucky and he's the first one i've ever met of his type.I think he's lying when he says he doesn't need people.I cna't imagine being that way.I meed people and i'm not doing good without them.That's why i'm hoping to make a friend or two on here.I just cannot take the solitude.I will be mentally crashed in no time flat living this way.Does anyone have any advice for me?
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[User Picture]From: pocketnaomi
2007-01-29 08:41 pm (UTC)
Why don't you go anyplace while living where you are now? Is it possible to live there, but get out most days and go see people or do things? If not, is it possible to go live someplace else and still visit your friend frequently? It sounds like you're making this artificially into an all or nothing deal, and it doesn't have to be.
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[User Picture]From: trina3
2007-01-29 10:24 pm (UTC)

I can't be trusted

I can't go any where because every time i get a chance to get away i get drunk and don't want to come back home.My friend would never understand me going back to my sister.I've mentioned it before,but my sister is not the most stable person in the world and so the conversation dies there with i don't think your sister is good for you.
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[User Picture]From: pocketnaomi
2007-01-29 10:36 pm (UTC)

Re: I can't be trusted

Okay, it sounds like your central issue isn't where to live, your central issue is how to get the drinking problem under internal control rather than external. If you can do that, you can live anywhere you damn please and go anywhere you want to from there. If you can't, you're going to have to be kept under lock and key wherever you live, and that's not going to be good for you. It's also a much bigger problem than the isolation alone.

Get thyself to a good substance-abuse doctor, is the best advice I can give you, and figure out where is the best place for you to live with their help. This is not an amateur's problem to solve, whether that amateur be you, your friend, or your sister.
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