|Maybe some progress?
||[Aug. 2nd, 2006|01:17 pm]
Friends in Need of Depression Support
I had a -miserable- day yesterday. I hadn't slept much the night before, and didn't have soda (but I did have some chocolate for caffeine, etc.). Traffic was HORRENDOUS, making me an hour late for work. I am NEVER taking a job this far from home again. Live and learn. However, it's only until the end of August, and if I'm sleeping well it will be much easier for me to get out of the house on time in the morning. I was on the verge of tears a lot, and anxious.
I decided to take 1/2 an ativan at dinnertime, and a trazodone at bedtime. I was hoping that in case the trazodone -was- making me anxious when I wake up at night, that the ativan would counteract it. I'm not sure if that's what happened, but I woke uo only briefly in the night, and I was able to get back to sleep easily. Woke up well before the alarm feeling rested, and felt no need for caffeine. YAY!
Another piece of the puzzle occurred to me yesterday as well, and it's so stupid of me not to have realized this before. We have this full-spectrum light on one of our nightstands. I got it years ago to help prevent/treat Seasonal Affective Disorder, which I'm not sure if I have, but I have gotten depressed in winter before (although not exclusively, and I always thought it was more the cold than the darkness. It was worth a shot). I've only used it occasionally for that purpose, and since it's been on the nightstand we've been using it like a regular light. When we are home. At night. D'oh!! Probably NOT a good idea. Especially since I had suspected in retrospect that using that light to illuminate my cat Erica for the purpose of killing fleas on her in 1995 might have contributed to the anxiety and panic attacks I had while pregnant with Matthew. So I mentioned this to Gerry yesterday, and we agreed to get another light for that side of the room, and put away the broad spectrum light.
I hope that sleeping at night will become a trend. A daily occurrence, even. Just think...
Sleeping. Every night. Without having to think about it. Wowww....